A trip to the doctor's

I'm in bed now so I guess it's time to write a new post. Today got a little rough for me when I got to my second job, but after awhile I eased out of it. And right now I'm feeling pretty good :)  I worked three jobs today! And I had a visit to the doctor. I had to get some lab work done so they poked me with a needle and took two vials of my blood  0_0  The nurse-lady who did it was really nice though so it was ok. My doctor on the other hand makes me feel...uncomfortable? awkward? like we're not connecting and I just want to get out of there as quick as possible. It's a little frustrating for me. I really like having connections with people. 

Andrew Garfield and Dr Who!!

Holy crap!! Spider-man was on Doctor Who!!! Third season episode 5!! That's awesome

the weekend

Hey everyone, sorry I forgot to post yesterday.  It's been a rough weekend for me and today hasn't been any better.  But I did get out and go somewhere on Saturday.  I went to the new aquarium down in Draper.  It was super busy!  So many people... but the animals I got to see were awesome.  I'd love to go again sometime, perhaps when it is less busy though.  Sunday I continued my movie marathon of the Star Wars series with my friends.  We watched Ep 3 & 4.  I like all the Star Wars movies, but there are things that I wish would be better.  I'm not going to go into it though.  Just not in the mood right now.

Driving my new truck is coming along (it's a manual).  A few random times I've stalled it, like when pulling in my driveway and I run out of momentum, but I'm afraid to give it too much gas while letting off the clutch for fear of it jumping the little space between my and my parent's car too quickly and thus I stalled it...twice.  But for the most part I'm driving well.

Can I just say that fighting/living with/dealing with depression is really hard.  When you get stuck in a funk, it's really hard to get yourself out of it.  And for me, I just want someone to come along and make me feel happier, but it doesn't work that way.  The last couple of nights have been painful and I've felt really alone.  I have friends but I didn't feel like I could talk to any of them, because I know how draining depression is on me and I don't want to be draining to my friends.  I don't want to become someone that they don't want to be around or talk to.  It's just so hard.

Goal

I think it's been awhile. I saw some lightning and heard some thunder today :) Love it. Ready for a big storm. 

So work is getting to me. I get really irritated and I just do not look forward to going, especially when we are busy. It could be worse I concede, but it could also be better. But as long as I need money there isn't much I can do about it :(

I bought a truck as the picture from yesterday illustrates. I like it. It's a manual so I'm getting practiced with a clutch. That's something I've wanted to do since I first learned to drive. I guess I'm finally achieving my goal :)

New truck!

Expectation

I might have some exciting news to share tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

Crazy beautiful weather

It is beautiful outside!!!  All that wind yesterday plus the rain really cleaned the air and it's crispy clear.  I love it.  It's just a little cold :-P  Yesterday when I was down at my third job, when I got there the temperature was in the mid to upper 70s.  I worked for just a little over an hour and by the time I stepped outside to get in my car, it was in the mid to upper 50s!  It was kinda funny.  I watched my thermometer just plummet as I started the engine.  

Well today I am at work waiting for the downfall of lots of stuff to do.  Til then I got nothing.  I guess I will go do the daily jigsaw.