Families

I am an only child.  So for me, any time I have the opportunity to see what the family dynamics are like in a family with multiple children I just soak it in.  It's so different from my quiet life of solitude.  Tonight I had one of those opportunities.  Every family is different, some fight more than others, some are more loving of each other than others.  I don't know, it almost makes me want to do research and case studies, but that's my psychologist side coming out :)  Sometimes I feel sad that I didn't have siblings or grow up in a home with many members, and being in a home where there are many and it's a happy home only aggravates the sadness.  However, tonight was not one of those nights, though the family I was with definitely seemed happy and loving and cohesive to my brief observation.  It was a good experience.

Which brings me to my second thought.  When I was much younger my parents would let me go to and have sleepovers, with friends or with cousins.  I loved these events.  I realize now that I felt very alive and in the moment and happy.  Then when the time came to go home or for my friend/cousin to go home I became sad.  I didn't want to go back to being the only one.  I liked having someone to play with and talk to.  I bring this up because tonight when I came home I was starting to feel that a little bit.  And then thoughts of living alone crept in, and missing friends, and just wanting to have someone with me in my life.  Ugh!

And the battle continues.