Ok I'm at work now and today has been a struggle. I just want to shake this feeling I'm having of being stuck and sad and down and helpless. Blah!!! I don't like feeling like this, but this is a typical day about 50% of the time.
Ok what are some things good in my life? I love that I have cats. They are so cute and playful and cuddly and affectionate and expressive and soft. And did I mention cute? :) I have a few pretty good friends, some of which actually know what I deal with on a day-to-day basis and are available as a support. I have a job, a source of income, that keeps me afloat, or at least keeps me from sinking to the bottom of the financial woes ocean. [so easy to slide to the negative]
What can I look forward to? Life not always being like this for forever. Moments of pure happiness. Better than nothing.
...and this is where I start to struggle. I'm not sure what I have to look forward to, at least in a more detailed and immediate future fashion. I don't know what I want. I don't have something to shoot for, something to give me meaning and motivation during times like this when I'm feeling the way I feel. I know I want to be happy, but I don't know what will bring me that happiness. And in the meantime I'm trying to stay positive, but it's SO hard sometimes....a lot of the time.... blah! [ok that brought me a little chuckle]
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